I Miss You, I Miss You Not

Ellie Van Gorden - Senegal


September 11, 2018

Things I Miss:

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Toilet paper

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Tissues

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La Croix/ water that doesn’t taste faintly soapy

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The luxury of speaking my first language

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A warm shower

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Clean air

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Things to look at on the walls

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Air conditioning. Air conditioning. Air conditioning.

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The sound of cicadas at dusk

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Having responsibilities (this will soon change)

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A fridge full of food

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Betty Rae’s ice cream

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Driving my car

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Not having to lock up everything I own

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Squirrels (even the ones who freeze in the
street)

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Hand soap! (working on this one)

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Not being stared at everywhere I go

Things I Don’t Miss:

·         Internet 

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Social media

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Feeling stressed all the time

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Constantly worrying about my body

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Shaving

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Doing my hair

o  
Being ashamed of my occasional acne

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Having too many things

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Being on my phone all the time/feeling as if my
phone was an extension of myself

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Never taking time for myself to relax and see
things introspectively

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Not being conscious of the trash I create

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The constant labeling, categorizing and grouping
that I did to myself

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Not recognizing my implicit bias enough

To be continued…

Ellie Van Gorden