Here’s a list of the things I didn’t expect to cry over while preparing to leave:
- Driving south towards PCH
- Sleeping in my bed for the last time for a while
- Leaving my car (that probably won’t be there when I get back)
- Receiving bracelets from my closest friends
- Putting things in my suitcase
Yeah, saying goodbye to all these things was hard, but I think I was emotional over them for a completely different reason than I initially thought. I wasn’t upset about leaving them, I was upset over the fact that I was never going to experience these things the same way ever again. I was about to leave home for the first time and embark on a seriously crazy adventure that will not only change my view on California, but the whole world as I know it. Coming to this realization was the first time I can remember ever being absolutely terrified of the unknown, but I also could not wait to get on that plane and leave.
On the short plane ride to San Francisco, I realized a few things:
- Technology is such an incredible thing. My phone was blowing up with messages from all the fellows sharing their travels and my family and friends wishing me luck and a safe flight. It made me feel so connected even though I was about to board a plane that wasn’t taking me back home in a few days.
- I’m so ready for this. I made it through security, took a deep breath, and suddenly I felt this confidence I hadn’t felt in the last few days and all my nerves began fading away.
- “Excited and nervous are the same feeling, it’s just the label you give it,” is absolutely true. Shout-out to Mrs. DeBerard for this one because this being said in her voice has been running through my head a lot. My nerves really did turn into excitement when I got on that plane, but they were the same exact uncomfortable feeling in my stomach.
I really cannot wait for this adventure to begin.
I haven’t yet reached my fundraising goal and it would mean so much to mean if you considered donating! Here’s a video explaining a little but about what the fundraiser is for and why it is so important to me:
And here’s a link directly to my fundraising page: